Wednesday, February 07, 2007

Change Happens

When I was younger I loved midnight. Midnight was when the party started. Midnight meant excitement. Midnight made my blood boil. When I was younger, I embraced midnight with all the energy I had and basked in its electricity and rhythm on a thumping dance floor. When I was younger midnight was mine!

But now I'm older. Now I stare at midnight as I lie in bed, and I dread what it holds. Now that I'm older, staring at midnight reminds of responsibilities--responsibilities that await in the morning. Now that I'm older, the world doesn't make it easy to enjoy midnight and take care of those responsibilities too. Every once in a while, I might forget and experience the briefest memory of the potential that midnight used to hold, but all too soon I am shaken from that daze as reality comes flying in and smacks me in the face.

Had I know this then, I think I might have permanently set my watch to midnight. But I didn't, and time has marched on.

This is what I have to say to you today.

10 Deserve Mamma's Love:

MommaK said...

Lately I hate 1:30 am. I keep waking up then and can't get back to sleep until about 3am. It sucks!

Jill said...

Midnight is our sixteen-year-old's curfew. When I think of midnight now, I think of jerking awake with anxiety, wondering if he will make it in by curfew. Funny how things change.

Her Bad Mother said...

Ditto. DITTO.

How midnight has been shifted, and reshaped. Oh, how it has.

Dorky Dad said...

Yup. When I was young, staying up all night was a badge of honor, a goal almost. Now it means I'm probably in deep trouble.

Janet a.k.a. "Wonder Mom" said...

Ah, spoken straight from my brain these days.... Thank you.

wendy boucher said...

Midnight? What's midnight? Oh yeah, I remember now. Thanks for the reminder. Now I'm just a dreaming droolbag when midnight rolls around.

canape said...

I often feel as though I'm racing midnight. Must sleep before I see 12:00 on the clock . . .

Kevin Charnas said...

Isn't that the truth...And I never thought I'd have sleepless nights.

karrie said...

Midnight is much more fun when it is not followed by 5am.

Queen of the Mayhem said...

Midnight? I rarely make it past 10 p.m. these days! When did I grow up and turn into a maw-maw? It's hard to act wild and crazy, when you know two children will wake you at the break of dawn the next morning!