Thursday, December 31, 2009

In a Better Mood

Leave it to PFunky to set me straight--and some uplifting words from Laurie to put me on a better track.*

I've been pissed off all day. On Twitter I was reading about all the "GREAT" and "FANTASTIC" plans people have for the new year. Everyone was so freaking chipper. Apparently I only follow the uber-achievers whose sole purpose in life is to make me feel like a big gigantic loser by comparison.

Where am I going? What am I going to do next? What have I accomplished so far? What do I have to show for my time on this planet? Why was it again I went away to college? And moved away from home? How the heck am I going to make the changes I really want to make in my life?

Oh yeah, and I'm going to be 40 in 2010.

It wasn't a pretty day.

Just moments ago, I was reminded that we are putting another decade on the books (I mean I knew this, but I didn't really THINK about it), and then I started to think about my life 10 years ago.

The roof that is over my head? Didn't belong to me yet.

The kind people I work for now? Hadn't met 'em yet.

The three crazy, rambunctious, big-hearted boys who make me want to both pull out all my hair and laugh hysterically every single day? One just went back home to live with his mom and the other two were a vague concept.

I may not be world-famous (yet). I may not be the hottest mommy in town (yet). I may even still have that nasty Diet Coke habit (let's not get too hasty with our resolutions), but I do have a life I couldn't conceive of just ten years ago.

Makes me wonder how I'll look back ten years from now.

*I hope you know how much your words meant to me today--always.

10 Deserve Mamma's Love:

Marty, a.k.a. canape said...

I never had NYE plans even when I didn't have kids. It always seemed like a bit of a non-holiday to me.

I'm glad you are feeling better and can ring in the new year either happier or asleep ;)

Obviously, since I'm reading blogs at 8:30 on NYE, it's another year with no plans for me!

{sue} said...

You are rocking, exactly as you are!!! (Although I have to hate you just a little for being under 40 still.)

Happy New Year!!

flutter said...

just LOOK at your beautiful life.

kris said...

Such an amazing life, this. So glad we get to share a wee bit of it together.

And the Diet Coke thing? LET US NOT GET CRAZY.

Deb Rox said...

I only love to look back for that very reason--it is amazing what might lie before us. Love to you in this happy new year!

(have to correct you, though. you are definitely one of the hottest mommies on the block.)

PFunky said...

Happy New Year! Glad you are back on track Mamma!!! xoxo

Kristen said...

NYE is all about the SPIN, baby! Really it's amateur night. I had a similar loathing with the "OMGLookAtALLTheThingsIDidin2009" people. What the hell is up with that? I had a baby in 2009. Other than that, I did squat. And I'm comfortable with that. I am kinda jealous you are turning 40 this year. I'm not far behind you but I hear that when you turn 40, you look back on posts like this one and laugh because you realize you are so cool and so over it.

Victoria said...

I felt the same way NY's day. Augh. I just wanted to smack people.

I keep telling myself that 2010 will rock! Add in more exclamation points and in the end it probably will. I may even have a request for you with your trusty camera.

Anonymous said...

Wishing you a kick ass 2010.

Unknown said...

Happy Birthday in 2010. I love this somehow "forward-looking retrospective."