Friday, December 04, 2009

And Again

Most of you are just waking up.

I'm still wearing the same clothes I put on after my shower yesterday morning. I couldn't sleep last night.

A bunch of good friends came over last night. I had a little get together. I didn't stress about it. I didn't freak out about the way my house looked. I didn't even worry about the food. Everything came together just fine. People arrived. We laughed. We had great conversations. New friendships were formed. It was a fantastic evening.

I checked my Blackberry after everyone left. I like to look at my calendar for the next day before I go to bed--to make sure I didn't forget anything.

There were six missed calls on my phone.

I wasn't able to get back in touch with the callers. It was late. But, I was able to get a little information. The thing is my parents were already in bed.

The news could wait until morning.

My mom could have one more peaceful night's sleep before we start the whole routine all over again.

We've done this so many times before.

I'm just not used to my new role as the one who breaks the news.

And the fact that I'm not there to support them...I think that's even harder.

15 Deserve Mamma's Love:

KC said...

Damn. I'm sorry.

Sarah, Goon Squad Sarah said...

That sucks. I'm sorry.

Busy Mom said...

Ugh, it's an awful cycle. I am so sorry. Hang in there.

Have been there about suddenly being the one to break news to your parents. That is a very weird place to be.

PunditMom said...

ACK! I am sorry to hear that. I'm sorry I wasn't able to be there last night, but if you need something, let me know. xo

Marty, a.k.a. canape said...

I'm guessing I have an idea of the news. Or at least the subject.

I hope everyone at your house is alright. Much love to you all.

Mamma said...

Thank you all. We've been dealing with this for so many years now you'd think I would be used to it, but it still knocks me for a loop.

Sorry for being a little evasive but now that I have a 13 yo who's online...

That's who I worry about those most in all of this.

karey m. said...

ugh. sorry, you.

emmajames said...

Oh, Amie, I'm so sorry. It never gets any easier, but thank goodness you have the tools, the support and the love of friends and family within reach to help you walk through.

Take care of yourself first, so you can show up they way I know you want to for everyone else. xo

emmajames said...

Oh, Amie, I'm so sorry. It never gets any easier, but thank goodness you have the tools, the support and the love of friends and family within reach to help you walk through.

Take care of yourself first, so you can show up they way I know you want to for everyone else. xo

Meg said...

Oh Amie. I am so sorry. You and your family are in my prayers.

~meg

Thien-Kim aka Kim said...

Thinking of you. You have such an amazing support people/family, don't hesitate to call us.

Christine Koh said...

Sending huge hugs.

Momo Fali said...

It's awful when roles change. Growing up sucks sometimes. I'm so, so sorry.

miladawley said...

support..................................................

karey m. said...

WHY AREN'T YOU POSTING ANYMORE?!?!

i don't mean to yell. it's just that i come here and come here and NOTHIN'!

yelling again.

COME AWWWWWN!