Friday, November 06, 2009

Too Many Roads Not Taken

The new year may mean the beginning of a new business for me.

I know I can start it. Resources abound for getting it going. I'm pretty sure I can even get a client or two.

What is holding me back is fear of failure, fear of making a bad decision, fear of hitting a wall.

Intellectually, I know it takes hard work and trial and error to become a success. I already live with the regret of roads not taken for these same sorts of fears. The conflict inside is making me feel sea-sick.

I want to move forward. I think it's a path I'm supposed to explore. I know the fears that are creeping in are the usual ghosts trying to sabotage my progress. I even know how to name them this time, and yet...

When my dog tries to jump on me, I turn around. I deny her attention and she gets the message quickly. Can I turn my back on these voices--the voices telling me I'll never have the talent, the voices telling me I'll never be more than a hack?

No way to know unless I try. And THAT? That is scary.

9 Deserve Mamma's Love:

Aimee Greeblemonkey said...

*I* believe in you!

KC said...

You can do eeeeet! I feel the same way with my little biz, but it's something I love to do and I do have one client. I don't know if I'll ever get another, but I have to try. Just take one step at a time and know you have this huge support system in the internet!

Pgoodness said...

I know exactly how you feel. I have so many ideas and projects started, but I've discovered the fear of failure is what keeps me from moving forward.

You can do this....and so can I (I think).

Meg said...

I know you can do it. And rock the hell out of it too.

karey m. said...

you know you can do this. it's just what you'd be letting go that's scary.

xoxo.

Thien-Kim aka Kim said...

Trust your gut! You can totally do it. And we are all here to support and help you!

PunditMom said...

I believe in you, too! I hear what you're saying -- I feel the fear, as well, on the projects I feel called to do and am worried about failure.

Maybe we should cheer each other on and we'll conquer our fears that way! xo

Jennifer H said...

I'm starting a business right now, too, and hear the same voices...this sounds so familiar to me. Trying to remind my self that the time will pass whether I do this or not, and so maybe I should actually make it happen.

Wishing you all the best...sounds like you have it coming to you. :)

PFunky said...

Go Mamma Go!
Show them what you know!
Do your thing!
Make your business and cha-ching!

I'm one of your cheerleaders, if you need any for back up!!! xoxo